Sept. 11 revisited

So it's been five years since the Sept. 11 terrorist attacks. It feels weird to blog about my thoughts on it. It's not like I was personally affected in any way. I had a lot of friends in New York. I didn't know anyone in Washington DC. I didn't know anyone on any of the flights. But like everyone, I will never forget the details of that day.

For me, I will always remember that it was Josh who told me what had happened. I had worked a late game the night before, filing a story and editing the site and leaving the ballpark at 3 a.m. I rolled into bed around 3:30, thinking "I am sleeping so late it is ridiculous." I woke to my phone ringing at 7:55 a.m. and I remember answering with a mumbled and annoyed, "What?"

Josh was calling me from Bloomington and told me a plane had hit the World Trade Center and I remember saying, "A little plane?" because I was groggy and picturing a small Cessna that got too close to the building or something.

He told me to turn on the TV and I asked what channel and he said "Any. It's all over the news."

I then watched the NBC and CNN. I logged on to my computer and sat in a chat room with my co-workers who were spread around the country. No one knew what to think. I watched as the first tower fell and then it was my turn to tell Josh what had happened.

They canceled the games that day, and for the rest of the week. I remember posting the story about the games being canceled and trying to come up with the right wording. I used a picture of a flag at half-staff.

I remember filling my car up with gas, because people were saying the price was going to skyrocket. I remember finding out that a friend of Josh's lost his younger brother in the World Trade Center. That was rather sobering.

Most of all, I remember feeling uncertain. No one knew what was happening, no one knew what was happening next. And has anything really changed? Dunno.

My life has changed immensely. I am married. Have a baby. I hope Jack doesn't have to live through his own 9/11-type moment. But unfortunately, I think it's probably inevitable.